And thank you GOD that she arrived last night!
I am having the hardest week with Mark getting fired, me possibly not having a job in a week, Sawyer's cancer diagnosis, John's sister's cancer back.. oh and I have bronchitis and an ear infection. So I guess everything feels heightened - just ugly and sad, and hard.
And, to top things off, Sam is having hernia surgery (praying it isn't as hard as I think it might be) and then I have to break Tristan's heart this weekend and tell him that after 4 years, he and his best friend will be separated. No more doing everything together. I will promise play dates and lunches and summer fun and dinners... but he and I will both know, it won't be the same. I will encourage and find new friends and set more play dates and make sure he has a blast in his "new world" but I don't pretend for one second it won't be hard. I won't have Tracy either, she is one of my best friends and a rock. She is my constant support at school and she's T's "mom" when I can't be there. My heart breaks but I know life will go on.
So, for today, I will make the most of these moments:
and find joy in every, single thing I can.
God is bigger, God is in control.
Isaiah 40:39-41:
"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young (women) men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."